I really should start posting more shouldn't I? Life just generally sucks at the moment :/ I found myself recently just hating the person I am, I am so jealous of other people because everybody likes them and talks to them and is close to them and here I am...not special at all :/ And honestly I am so confused about my feelings, sometimes I just dont want to be in a relationship, I mean I love my bf so much but I cnt help but think how different I would be and how different my life would be if we weren't together? I seriously contemplating a break from him but he's just got a puppy and well I dnt want to leave the puppy :( Its jst getting me so down atm and I dnt kno what to do anymore. I am defo gonna change my personality because I want to become who I was 3 years ago, I was sweet, innocent and an alright person no I am just so messed up I cant even look at who I have become....I think its too late to change people's opinions of me and well if that's true I might aswell be dead, I'ma good person but I am just so closed up and lack trust in people so how can I ever be my true self???
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